A Poem about My Spiritual Awakening

PHOTO: BETSY LORENZO

PHOTO: BETSY LORENZO

By Betsy Lorenzo

I kneel on my hardwood floor
Clasp my hands
Say Amen
Bow my head
And pray
I sit in silence
Sending God, Jesus, any higher being my prayers
Thoughts
Wishes
My gratitude
 
It was once hard for me to be thankful
To this God
Who had taught me so many harsh lessons
 
As a child I never prayed
I didn’t know what to say
I had no reason to pray
 
It took the sickness of a family member
To give me something to pray for
I prayed for real
I was finally given a reason to pray
 
I prayed hard
I prayed long
I prayed everywhere
 
Please don’t take him from us
He is loved and he is needed
                          Amen.
 
I prayed hard
I prayed long
I prayed everywhere
 
For nothing
My prayers went unheard
 
I turned my back on the heavens above
And fell
 
It took me falling
It took me being alone
Crying
With on one to talk to
For me to kneel on my hardwood floor
Clasp my hands
Say Amen
Bow my head
And pray

     Dear God,
     Give me strength
     Calm my heart and my spirit
                               Amen
I pray alone
I pray in silence
I pray on my hardwood floor
 
I pray
 
The pews
Filled with judgmental minds
And hypocritical spirits
Kill my spiritual connection
I feel no God here
In a place where
Conformity
Structure
And scheduled prayer lives
 
So I pray alone
I kneel on my hardwood floor
Clasp my hands
Say Amen
Bow my head
And pray
I sit in silence
Sending God, Jesus, any higher being
My prayers
Thoughts
Wishes
My gratitude
 
I grab my book
Write the date
To permanently say

     Gracias Dios mio por todo lo que me has dado
     (Thank you God for everything you have given me)
     I have fallen
     I have risen
     In the worst of times
     I have faith that the reason behind the bad
     Is to put me on the path to greatness
     I have faith in Your methods
     And I must not take them personally
     For it is not always about me
     As independent human beings
     That are connected by relationships
     We must realize that everyone has a lesson to learn
     The bad is not always for you
Though it affects you
 
Learn to grow
 
Whether it’s together
Or apart
God has given us
Each what we need to be on our independent paths
To greatness
 
So in my revelation
I thank you
And kneel on my hardwood floor
Clasp my hands
Say Amen
Bow my head
And pray
 
     In silence
Where my head is clear
And my heart is open
                          Amen.
 
We must all follow our own spiritual paths
We must all gain our own insights into the heavens
We must all learn to accept our lessons
And not take personally the ones that only affects us
 
We must kneel
Where we are comfortable
And create our own spiritual paths to the heavens
 
Let us be grateful
For at least we have
Eyes, time, and are here
On this day
Reading this message

PHOTO: BETSY LORENZO

PHOTO: BETSY LORENZO

Betsy Lorenzo's passion for wellness runs deep. As a 22-year-old women who struggled with weight and self acceptance for a long time, she eventually turned to self-care and now shares her wellness journey with audiences that she knows have a need to speak, be heard, and reflect. She shares her life experiences and the lessons she learned on her website through her personal writings at blorenzo13.wix.com/theartlives.